Ecclesiastes 11:5-6 As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother’s womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the maker of all things. Sow your seed in the morning, and at the evening let not your hands be idle, for you do not know which will succeed, whether this or that, or whether both will do equally well.
I had the thought the other day, if my season of being a stay-at-home mom mattered. Does it matter? Am I doing anything significant in this season?
I mean, am I not just doing a load of laundry only to have to redo it again next week? Completing dishes that will just get dirty again, cleaning toilets that will just need to be redone next week?
What significance is there in that? What of value am I contributing of my strengths and talents to the world?
(Side note; I am completely aware and understand and appreciate the value and importance this season is in raising my children and being home. The important, beautiful and God given task I have been given to love and raise these boys…but this is not what this blog post is about. It’s about my desire and calling I feel for MORE that I know God has for me after this season.)
As a stay-at-home mother, it’s hard not to see ‘other’ moms chasing their dreams, building businesses and hustling.
While I have many passions, dream jobs, etc.
Home? That’s it right now? That’s my calling?
While it’s nice to dabble in some photography here and there (and hope to build!), I also volunteer at my church and run their social media pages, I homeschool, I help run my husband’s automotive business and yet I still feel like “God what am I doing, and where am I headed?
I like focus, purpose and direction.
Am I exactly where I’m supposed to be? Not here, not there? Just in between?
Could God have purpose for me in the in between season?
What I am getting confused is my “calling” verse my “assignment.”
My calling will always be to love the Lord God with all my heart and all my soul.
My calling never changes no matter what season I am in.
My “assignment” changes month to month or even year to year. Right now, my “assignment” is home.
And God is in this season. He is in the moments, of me doing dishes, me folding laundry, and all the mundane. He’s in the moments he uses ME to teach my boys, love my boys and raise them well.
He needs me home, as this is his important assignment for me right now.
It’s not forever. It’s not my calling. This season will end, and a new assignment will come.
I have no idea the next assignment or when he’ll call me to it, but I do know God is preparing me for it. In all the things I’m doing, he is building character, building strength, building skill sets I did not have before, so that when that next assignment comes, I am ready and capable.
Verse 5: “Sow your seed in the morning, and at the evening let not your hands be idle, for you do not know which will succeed, whether this or that, or whether both will do equally well.”
Therefore, I will get up each morning, complete my assignment as WELL as I can, praying for Gods direction, guidance, meeting him in THIS assignment season, STILL and ALWAYS doing my CALLING and waiting upon the Lord; listening, willing, preparing for every assignment he has for me.
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